Sunday, May 10, 2009

10 Randoms on being a mother

(nice hair huh? or what about the dark circles under my eyes... all badges of motherhood I guess)
Today is Mother's Day, and as a mother, I like to think there is a day dedicated to all mothers out there to honor and revere them (was that too far??)

So, my randoms this week will be my thoughts about motherhood.

1. I didn't believe my mom when she said that you don't have favorites (mostly because I thought I was the favorite...), but you don't. Weird, because I have favorites of everything else, just not my kids.

2. I don't think saying that you want a break from your kids makes you a bad mom. I think it makes you a normal mom. I honestly don't believe the women who say they never want or need a break from their kids. We all need a break. We do.

3. That said, while I am on a break, I usually miss my kids more than I thought I would.

4. I love my kids more and more everyday. They make me laugh, they make me cry, they make me crazy. But I love them.

5. I never used to "sleep" in... I would sleep until 9ish... which isn't late by anyone's standards... but I would kill to sleep that "late" now. Just once.

6. I am high maintenance, and I fully admit that. This high maintenance made my family wonder whether or not I could actually handle parenthood. Just the other day, my sister told me that she really admires me, and my kids, and (for the most part) how they are shaping up already. I, of course, can't take all of the credit; I have an amazing husband, but I felt good knowing that someone out there thinks I might be doing okay by my children.

7. I can't can't can't wait until Cohen is out of diapers. I hate changing diapers. I hate poopy bums. (Not that there are many out there who love them, I would imagine, but I really hate them)

8. If I didn't have to worry about meals all of the time, I think I would be a better mom. I would have more time for my kids, more time to play, more time to get crafty with them. All I really want is a cook. A full-time cook.

9. I miss the life I had before I had kids. Selfish, probably. But I do. I miss being able to pick up at a moment's notice, and do whatever I want. I miss having money to spend on myself. I miss Grant and my weekly date night. I miss a lot of those things, but I also (most days) love the life I have now.

10. I knew being a mom would be hard. I knew that being a working mom would be even harder, so I am very happy that I am able to stay home with my kids. Motherhood is really the hardest thing I have ever done. I didn't think I would be up to the task, and most days I still doubt myself, but every once in a while, Avery will run up to me, and give me a kiss for no reason, or Cohen will grab my face and stick his slobbery mouth on mine, and it is all worth it.


Carol T said...

Love this, Kim! I miss the life I had before I became a mom, too, but part of that is missing my youth, when I used to shake my moneymaker at the local Roxbury...

Martha said...

Aw Kim. This is great. You speak the words of a million moms. Nice to read that I am not alone.